Commercial Rebellion.

"These boots were made for shilling."
In 2007, a mock promotional advert created by the Doc Martens shoe company found its way onto the world-wide-web. In the image, deceased Nirvana singer Kurt Cobain sits peaceful upon a heavenly cloud; dressed in nothing but a white robe, and a pair of Doctor Martens boots. The advert drew mass criticism from critics and fans alike - Nirvana were the antithesis of product hocking, and the ad was quickly withdrawn from publication. Of course, those a little more aware than most, will not have missed the reality, that an image posted online as a potential advert, is in fact an advert. So the job was done, and the company found a clever way to associate itself with a former rock star, unlikely to promote any commercial endorsement - in life or in death.
 
Today I caught a bus-stop advertisement of Lana Del-Ray - the singer songwriter who rides upon an image of dark, melancholic misery, carrying a miserable, sultry look, whilst modelling a fresh line of clothing for an established fashion chain. My second thought - after wondering how long before misery becomes in vogue - like it did in it mid-1990's, is just how clever this promotion is, and how few may manage to see beyond the idea that those who are generally depressive; living against the grain of life's wind of percentage, and eternally frustrated by the harsh side of a reality which isn't marketable in the slightest, tend not to promote clothing ranges.

Commercial representation of anything deemed "anti-society, or anti-corporate", is nothing new to our world; whether in advert or general perception form. The Sex Pistols were cleverly veiled unit shifters hidden under the banner of anti-establishment rebels; as much as Johnny Rotten doesn't eat Country-life butter because it's British, but because the company pay him 250,000 quid to say so. Iggy-Pop tries to convince us he Isn't really selling Car insurance, even though it hardly takes Albert Einstein to come to the conclusion he is selling out. Eminem sells computer games as if he isn't really, while Madonna hocks iPhones to convince herself she is not really 54-years-old, or bothered about her carefully cultivated and consistently adapted image.

"I'm miserable... no. really, I am"
The list is somewhat endless and nameless; each generation from the baby-boomers onwards, quite happy to sell themselves under the banner of being against the very product they represent. Personally, while I don't mind them selling out, I do mind being patronised towards the idea they are. I should be angry, but am more amused. Then again, more than anything, it probably makes me realise how the entertainment industry is just that - an industry. And the real genuine acts are few and far between; lost somewhere in the misunderstood midst of playing the human race for a line of pawns on a Chess board.

This is where artists such as Cobain, Michael Stipe, Bruce Springsteen, and the minority of others who refuse the financial or veiled benefits of shilling, attain greater credibility through the advent of time for sticking to personal principal. While much of what the guy believes is easy to ridicule, we are very unlikely to ever see Morissey dancing around in a pair of Gap jeans - proclaiming "heaven knows I'm not miserable now... that I got my brown chinos on."

It is nothing personal against Lana Del-Ray as a person, or artist; she needs to build herself a future, and I am sure ambition holds her as it does most of us, in its vice-like clutches. So she stands with a pout, looks miserable as fuck, takes a few shots, then goes home to a fat pay check and more twitter followers; her words and body language conveying depression and melancholy - her eyes, suggesting the complete opposite.

Perhaps I am being too harsh and bitter, I don't know. I am tired of seeing so many celebrities endorse a philosophy purely to sell a product. It would be like seeing pro-wrestler CM Punk puffing a joint, Chris Martin advertising a Big-Mac, or Stephen Hawking promoting a Volkswagen for under nine grand... oh wait. So in defence to Miss Del-Ray - at least she is not selling Woolworths t-shirts for 2 quid; see Chan, Jackie, for that one...

Lee.

One Hour Photo.

For anyone who visits my Facebook profile, they may notice my regular habit of posting photos on my wall. I cannot suggest to be any kind of expert on the art of photography, but for me, visiting any event, tourist destination, or special occasion remains incomplete, without the memories storied in digital form. 

As far as the style of each picture, I am not one for posed shots which - while nice to look at, do not represent a true reflection of the atmosphere of the moment. So I have decided to share a small collection of some of my Favourite photos; and why I like them...



This shot was actually taken by my younger brother in Camden Town, London, moments before the funeral of our great Uncle William; the house behind, his home of many years.
The suited kid on the left is a 22-year-old me, beside my eldest brother Graham - who was at the time, sandwiched between his wild Gothic youth, and the mature life of a father to my nephew and niece. 

It has the feel of an album cover; my lowered, steeped fingers, counteracting Graham's bored and impatient crossed arms.
Taken in Paris over the summertime. Three drunk Frenchmen take a leisurely snooze in the mid-afternoon Tuesday sunshine.
The beauty of this shot, was that in the middle of a packed, metropolitan city, not one person seemed either bothered about them being there, or having any reaction towards the fact they were; something you would never see in London.




My nephew Thomas - who seems to have a very unique viewpoint on all that comes his way; a wonderful sign of an individual mind, stands in this photo with a mixture of ambivalence, as he gazes at a dustbin designed as a Frog.
I am still not sure whether he is asking the bin 'What the bloody hell are you?" or is telling it "You aint scaring me into leaving this park, pal!"





My girlfriend's legs; raised high into the summer skyline. 
I love this photo because it is up to the imagination what exactly is going on with her upper half. 














Bagman; the former wandering vagrant of Harrow Town Centre. I was a little obsessed with this guy once upon a time - while he stank from his filthy mac, brown trousers, and old shoes he wore on a daily basis, as he carried around his collection of shopping bags containing bread and newspapers. He also wore a wedding ring, owned a bank card, and - unlike some of Harrows local gentry, was quite polite and courteous.
This shot, taken in 2010, shows man of bags in his regular sleeping spot of Harrow bus station. He has not been seen in the area for at least two years... I often hope to see him; clean suited, free of bags, and finally back with the owner of his beloved wedding band.





My youngest brothers pet cat, Millie. She is known to be a lovely yet very melancholic feline; due to a rough first two years, and arriving into this world in the back of a pub alleyway. This picture seems to capture her during a moment of introspective thought, and shows her warm yet slightly sad personality, all in one set of eyes.






The solitary male, sits by himself in the quiet thought of an Egdware pub. Who is he waiting for? What is he thinking? Has he been stood up by a potential partner, or just whittling the hours away in his own silent mind? How long will he ponder, before he takes another small glass of his alcoholic beverage.
I cannot draw, but if I could, this would be the kind of drawing I would love to create by hand. 














So there are a few of my favourite pictures I have taken - minus the first. They may be shit - I don't know, but I like them, and that is enough for me. The photograph has existed for 173 years; that's a lot of snapping...

Lee.

Life Without Facebook (For a While).

Why is it important I know somebody I happened to go to school with fifteen years ago, watched Cool Runnings in his underpants last night? Or some random dude who bought me a beer in a bar because we wore a similar colour shirt, is looking forward to his new job in construction? Why do I care to see wedding photos of a woman I never really spoke to, even when I knew her? Or view holiday snaps of the barista who - outside the polite confining position of her work, may struggle to string a sentence together in my company? On the flip-side, I cannot imagine too many people care less about me and my girlfriend's jaunts to the Olympic Games, my obsession with bumming jokes, and quaint insistence on posting these blogs when - in all honesty, only about 5% actually read them (if more are reading it, they sure aint saying it.)

Unless you are a technophobic hermit, have spent the last ten years in prison, or are so morbidly obese your fat legs cannot hop off the bed, you will be aware I refer to an average day on social networking kingpin, Facebook. I am addicted to the site, and, I am beginning to wonder why? Every day I log-in, at least ten times - even though it makes little difference in any capacity; whoever goes to bed thinking "That log-in to Facebook, was the highlight of my evening!" Once aboard the virtual prison cell, I tend to carefully think of an update - on my carefully constructed profile, to make me appear a mixture of clever, cool, self-deprecating, witty, philosophical, or any form of positive characteristic; a passive act of insecure qualification on my part. A half-true update such as "Pondering Camus", sounds a lot more mysterious than "Had a pleasurable wank" - which is sometimes true. The whole process seems based around creating an idea I am so much more than my reality suggests - even though, in actual reality, I am pretty likeable, socially adjusted guy... well, most of the time.

Those who know me on the site, do not need to read my info to figure me out. And those who don't know me, probably don't care anyway; why would they? The idea of a mutual associate works both ways. Yet still I remain addicted. And it is for this reason I am currently taking a holiday from the inter-communicational powerhouse; my aim of zero log-ins until October 2nd - 3 weeks in total, seems like a logical step - not too long to be missed, yet short enough to understand how much power the site has over people like me. The idea is part curiosity, part attempt to re-engage in the real world outside my front door, as I try to remind myself of the first 26 years of life - where it seemed people actually spoke to one another, and a 'friend' was an actual 'friend'; not some dude you once took a piss next to on holiday in Morocco, or whatever. But perhaps this is just my own distorted view of things - time shall tell; I just hope it is positive.

In a perfect reality I would confine my Facebook account to the locker of Old Davy Jones, but I can't. For there are a good number of old friends, acquaintances, family members, and loved ones, whose lives I am interested in on a site so easily accessible; more so pictures of themselves, their families, and all their travels, in comparison to personal updates. In truth, if I were to keep only those i consider a true 'friend' on the site, my list of 108 buds would likely cut itself in half - and even then, true genuine friends can only ever be counted on one hand.

So see you for a while Facebook. I doubt too many people will miss me for a few weeks, and some are likely to find solace from being forced to view my stupid updates and odd photos. I will undoubtedly miss those I regularly communicate with - but they understand the nature of life through my eyes. My blogs will find their way to my wall, through a very much trusted, old friend - and I shall continue to update how this freedom is affecting my real life. But after logging in every day to the site for at least three years solid, I need a break from Facebook and the whole internet thing for a little. My relationship with the web is very much love/hate; the 2% of it I love is fantastic, the other 98% or so, just seems like a giant toilet bowl nobody has bothered to flush yet. Truth is, if I wasn't a writer, I would probably hardly ever use it. 

Here is to a month without message alerts, friend requests, notification updates, bejewelled invites, and that stupid fucking how many squares quiz! Until the next time...

Lee.


Paralympic Activity.




"In the Olympic Park, beneath the venues"
Each day of my life, a small bag of stones lie attached to my side. Each stone is created by a self created misconception, and their weight often holds me down. Most of them exist through personal ignorance and a lack of experience. But - even though they do, I cannot shed any of them, without solid proof which lets me know they are built on delusion; I am a man, and logic is our trusted friend... sometimes. 

While aware of its existence as a post-Olympic competition for the handicapped, I was never someone who took much interest in the Paralympic games. I always saw it as an event designed as a passive form of patronisation; in order to hand the disabled a feeling they were important - even though, they really weren’t. 

I saw it in a kind of “Aww, look at that dwarf swimming – isn’t she brave”. Or “It must be nice to feel like a proper athlete, running without legs and all”. In essence, it was a competition for enforcing rehabilitation, as opposed to breaking social barriers; the sporting equivalent of employing a Down syndrome sufferer as guard of a 'secret' room – which he never figures out is actually empty. Yes, my ignorance to the second largest sporting event on planet Earth, was appalling. 

The media coverage didn’t help. Beijing 2008’s hour of nightly highlights on the BBC, was hardly a fair reflection of a twenty-one event competition where over five hundred Gold medals were won. Not to mention their overly insulting nature of referring to the athletes as ‘special’, and maintaining a predictable try-hard mantra of ‘they are people too, let's not forget that’. Overall, my impression of a Paralympian was general and small-minded; someone who probably lost their legs or arms in an accident, found a sport to give their life meaning, and then wins a Gold medal - as hardly anyone else took part in their event.

With the games heading to London, my misconceptions had developed added dust of assumption. I believed they would arrive and leave my hometown with minimal fanfare, a few British medals would be won her and there, and the odd curious soul may even turn up to patronise an event of two. But all in all, no one would really give a shit. The Olympic hangover would be too strong; making the disabled bodied competitors seem like a massive, disadvantaged let down. I wanted to be wrong, but never ever thought I would be. Thankfully, I was wrong. Never in my wildest dreams, did I know how wrong I would be, and almost joyous for the fact I was.

From the nature of the very first day of competition, through the countless, endless stories of human triumph over adversity; bordering on the sublime, to the ridiculous. And the manners in which they found means to take part (the armless silver medallist archer, replacing his arm with a foot, my personal favourite), I was finding myself constantly readdressing my perceptions of the games, it’s competitions, the national and global response, and – more than anything else, those who were attempting to leave with a medal wrung proud around their necks… the athletes. My mind had limits, their minds, obviously, didn’t even recognize the word’s existence. 

These were not pathetic cripples to pander to. These were super-strong, dedicated machines. By the time I saw double stick legged amputee Richard Whitehead storm through his competition to win T42 200m Gold; looking like some kind of demented, ambitious cyborg, I was lost in an awe which left me genuinely speechless. Over the next week, as 17-year-old dwarf swimmer Ellie Simmons, knocked out a trifecta of medals, Alex Zanardi won Double Gold in hand-cycling; ten years after losing both legs in a truly horrific motor racing smash. The successes of Team GB’s ‘Superhumans’; a marketing term I laughed at only two weeks ago as being ridiculous – which it was, the term was an understatement. One legged high-jumpers, blind long jumpers, wheelchair Rugby, Basketball, and Fencers. Limbless volleyball players, armless swimmers… the list went on and on and on; every last one a winner, every last one humble. Eventually – like most of those who either had no idea what to expect – or wasn’t expecting anything of note, we came to expect the unexpected; fundamentally grateful, each time we did. As an event coined to ‘inspire a generation’, it failed… instead, it inspired every generation currently living; which doesn't happen very often, if ever.  

I was fortunate enough to see the Olympic Park, the athletics at Olympic stadium, and a mixture of events as the Excel arena. Each time I felt the same glow of positivity, warm energy, and general celebration of life and achievement – only sport and music seem able to achieve. In any other walk of life, seeing two French Paralympic wheelchair athletes puffing on a crafty fag, would probably cause me to assume they don’t have many other joys in life. With the weight of my misconception stones now firmly behind me, I merely thought to myself ‘cheeky bastards. You won’t win any medals doing that!’ This trend continued throughout, and after a while of walking around all forms of mental and physical ‘disability’, instead of feeling bad for them, or fortunate for myself, I was no longer aware of the differences; because, deep down, there weren’t any – limb count is irrelevant. The only real difference I could think of, was how every last athlete would piss on me, if I tried taking them on at their chosen event. 

The games have ended now, and life goes on. Rio will try to emulate London, America will continue to ignore the games, and heart will continue to triumph over adversity. For me, I now see the Paralympians in a similar vein to the Olympians. However, there is one difference; a Paralympian is proof, that whatever suffering you have experienced in life, as long as you are breathing, victory is both possible, and – with enough dedication, determination, and sheer will, absolutely probable. Goodbye Paralympics; you have inspired a nation, a world, and an entire species. You have served as an iron-clad reminder, that the human spirit surpasses every ounce of suffering the nature of life can ever throw at us. You have shown us that life will never be built around what we lose, as much as what we were born with, and never forget we have. 

The disability was my stone of misconception; it has gone now. I will never again use the word 'impossible', in any sentence - only when I denounce it...

Lee.